Vantage point

It is a strange thing to experience the different points of view people have when it comes to the same thing.

It is a strange thing to experience the different points of view people have when it comes to the same thing. Funny in a way, but strange. The most difficult thing about it… not judging someone else on their way of looking at things.

How did this come to mind? Well… if I tell you I have this problem…..physical, and it has been causing me a lot of pain, for a long time now. We discovered what the problem is a while ago and now I can finally get an operation to get rid of the pain.

My point of view: Specialists are busy people, I am glad we found the problem and I can get help relatively quick. In just a short while, the pain will be gone and life will be just right again.

Family and friends: Finally, that took long enough!!!! We are very glad you will be operated on, so you can live your life without pain.

The reactions one might expect, right? I am happy with these reactions. Then there is this one reaction and it needs a picture painted:

My hobby is singing… I wanted to act a bit as well and with some difficulty I found a group of people to sing with. Love it. Everyone is great. We have a performance next month, I sing a song in it and have two lines of dialogue. Nice right!!!!

I do not want to miss it, but….. I am in pain, everyone there can see it and they are glad I am going to be pain free if everything goes as it should. The all say they hope I can be at the performance, but my health is more important, so don’t worry and see what happens. Everything will be OK.

Then there is the person that is there mostly for our singing, but is our overall artistic leader. Here comes the different point of view. We have been working hard to make it a good production (we are just small fish in the ocean of acting and singing, kids trying to imitate the grownups, but we have a lot of fun doing this), it is taking shape and becoming a very fine performance, something to be proud of! I come along, (a song and two active lines), to say I am getting an operation, very close to the performance. PANNIC!!!!!!!! What about the musical? Does your doctor know you have a performance to do, what does he say about it. We need you to do your part!!!! (we do not have understudies of course, so it might be possible someone has to fill in for me) After rehearsal I got the personal questions, what is wrong with me, how much pain am I in, is this the only way to get rid of the pain (yes, the only way left). If I do get the operation, tell the anaesthetist to be careful with my vocal cords.

Now I have had talks with our artistic leader about what is wrong with me (and it is nothing serious, just painful) so it should have been known, but this person is a bit older (over sixty) and enthusiastic about the play and everything around it.

I honestly do not thing they want to walk right over me and my feelings, it is just something that popped into their mind at that time. It does not feel too great to have these questions instead of ‘how are you feeling about it’, but I can understand it. I intend to be there, because for personal reasons, this will be an important performance, so… keep your fingers crossed?

Love

Public Dreamer

purpose

There are at least two times a year where I ask myself what purpose I have on earth. Point is, we all matter. Even if we do not know how, there are people that got helped by something good we did.

There are at least two times a year where I ask myself what purpose I have on earth. My birthday and New Year’s Eve.

I think it is because success is measured by wealth and how many people know you, how much you do for you community. I am not rich, the people I know are normal, like me (no stars I know about, although some of them should be in my opinion) and if I do not have to leave my house, I will not leave it, so community is screwed. Why than should I be around? I have lost people who truly loved live, took it for everything they could. I don’t do that, so why be?

I am happy to say I have known the answer for a couple of years now, but it is something I have to remind myself of. Remember Pocahontas from Disney? When grandmother Willow dips a leave into the water and talks about the ripples? That is why……ripples.

Everything I do creates ripples. Most of them don’t do much, but some of them change lives. Just as the ripples of some other people changed mine. It does not have to be a big change, small changes count. a small domino can do spectacular things by the way it sets everything else in motion. The movie Pay it forward shows how this works.

So even if I don’t know what my ripples achieve, I know some of them have made important changes. I know this, because of al the wonderful people in my life and the situations I encounter.

I try to help others if I can and I get help when I need it. I mean, this day and age, when you are at the side of the road with bike troubles, most people pas by and do nothing. When it happened to me, someone stopped, loaned me their Phone and helped me get to where I needed to go by pushing me. I payed it forward again when just a couple of weeks later someone else had troubles with their bike. I let them hang on to me, so I did the work, we both got where we needed to be.

How do I see this as a ripple I started? After all I just told you I paid it forward. Well… much earlier in the year there was a man in scooter. The thing did not move, so I pushed him to where he needed to be. Ripple started….

Point is, we all matter. Even if we do not know how, there are people that got helped by something good we did. Even a smile given to a stranger and a friendly hello might brighten their day.

 

First Blog

Now why start a blog?
Maybe my public dreams and thought will be good for something other than clearing my thougts.

Here I go, my first blog…. I am both scared and excited. As you can read in the about section, my native language is not English, so forgive me if some things are not spelled correctly or some sentences should be different. The main thing I guess is understanding the meaning behind the words.

Now why start a blog?
Good question. I used to own a diary when I was younger. Writing my thougts down helped me to order them. Now that I am older, I do not take the time to write. Other things become more important even though technicaly they are not… more important that is.They just feel that way.

Some time ago I came along a podcast of Curt Mega. I started listening to it from the beginning and in one of the episodes he talkes about the difference one person can make. Lets face it, most of us do not feel like we can make much difference do we. I certanly do not think I make that much of a difference.
Ik got me thinking… Curt states that every action, no matter how small can influence someone without you knowing. Granted his perspective is that of an actor/director/writer/singer/creater and whatever else I might be forgetting, but it goes for all of us. Every word we say or in my case type could have an impact on others.

Fine, than why do you need to write Publicly instead of a diary?
I guess I think I will take time to write a blog, since we live in a digital time. And yes, I could make a diary on my computer, but i thought about starting an advenure. An anonymous one, because my employers to be do not have to find this. I would like to be gudged on my qualities, nog my ramblings on the net.
Putting it online is my way of thinking out loud. Maybe my ideas can help you and maybe you can help me with my ideas.

I intend to update this diary regularly, so keep an eye out for it, for I hope my ideas may at least entertain you if you found this page.

Maybe my public dreams and thought will be good for something other than clearing my thougts.

Love
Dreamer